Okay moms (and dads) out there...
How many of you are stressed? Like to the point you want to SCREAM when you walk in the door. Lordy-bee help me if I am the only one. I can't be, right?
I have an almost three year old. She has gotten into a phase that I am just not digging. The "I do it myself" and "This is the rules" stage. Everything takes a million times longer to do than I'm used to and that stresses me out. When she wants her own way she will look at me and say "You say no but I say yes. And I'm the baby and that's the rules." No clue where she got that from but MAN can it cause a meltdown. Hers or mine, depending on the day.
And soon we will be adding a little man to our home. So I'm a hormonal mess right now. Into the 6th month (technically 23 weeks, so however you determine that in pregnancy language) and spring is peeking its head out of those cruddy North-Midwestern clouds. One day we have 85* and the next we're lucky to top out at 60. Ugh. After all my years up here and I'm still not mentally ready for the crazy changes in weather.
I just recently got engaged too. We're planning the wedding for next year, but I am trying to get everything done or prepped as much as possible now, before the baby gets here. I know me: I won't have a ton of time once the little guy gets here. And I won't be happy if I have to settle on a lot the closer we get to the day. So I'm scheduling tastings for the food and cake, visits with the florists, meetings with the DJ people... And freaking out that I might forget something vitally important! I could have hired someone to do all this for me, but that seems like a waste of money when we are staying on a budget.
Okay. So that's my back story. The cranky toddler, the pregnancy hormones, the wedding planning, the "I'm stuck in the house almost all day every day" lifestyle. It was all adding up to make me really frustrated.
When one day I was in the car with my toddler and I looked at her in my rearview mirror. She was just sitting there -quiet- and I realized that I take my life for granted. I am very lucky to have my toddler. She is feisty and smart and physically capable of so much. Even when she is fighting me, I am lucky that she is cognizant enough of what's going on around her and what I am saying that she can make HER point, even if I don't LIKE her point!
I decided in that minute that I would force myself to find something to be grateful for EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. And yes, I am well aware that some days it will be an act, a force, a decision to be grateful. Because life is stressful and who knows how my hormones will react to things. Heck, a change in wind direction could ruin my day!! You just never know!! So I walked my little girl into the bookstore and grabbed a journal. I spent quite a few minutes choosing just the right journal for this new venture.
When I got home, I grabbed a book I have already read 2 or 3 times. The Happiness Project was one I read before I started dating my fiance and I really enjoyed it. It was fun and funny and informative. It made me rethink how I do things and why I do things. So I decided to go back there and re-read it. I thought "Well, heck, I'll feel even more accomplished when I can fly through this book since I've read it once before!" Eh eh
I put the book and the journal in my purse. That way it's a constant reminder to get my butt in gear and get grateful! Today I decided that I'm going to (try to) write once a week on a blog about what crap hit the fan, and why I am grateful for it. So today was blog prep day.
And.. CHECK! Totally feel accomplished now! Haha
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