"Oh Just Piss Off!"

What am I thankful for today? The ability to communicate! Because being able to tell someone who has irritated you beyond belief to just piss off is one of the best feelings in the world!!

I've had a rough day. Can you tell? It started with a toddler who wanted candy for breakfast. I said no, of course. (Only I am allowed to have junk food for breakfast. I am the mom after all.) From there it was one thing after another.

• We were thinking about buying some land and building our "first dream house." You know, the house you build that has just about everything you want in it, but isn't the actual dream house--because you wait until you retire to get that one? Yeah, that's the house we were trying to make happen. But it seemed like every step of the way, we had a road block of some sort. Some piece of vital information was missing which would have totally made our lives easier. The fiance spent hours this weekend looking for plans with what he wanted (a wrap around porch) and what I wanted (a breakfast nook) and what we wanted (4 bedrooms, lots of storage, etc). Finally found one at 10pm last night. Found out today we can't use *that* plan unless we want to shell out 5G's!! Seriously? No thanks. 
• Went to the craft store to try and find some fun paper to put in the baby shower invites. Nothing. Ended up with plain white card stock I had to finagle to make look fun and festive. (Took a few tries at home, but ultimately I am happy with the turn out.) But while I was there, I asked the person working in the "papers" aisle if she had any idea of what paper would be best. Blank stare followed by, "Ummmm, we have this paper in this aisle." REALLY?!? No Kidding!! The paper in the paper aisle?!? Go friggin figure! What I was asking is: What paper would be best for a photo on one side and a fun note with baby shower theme on the other? What types of paper to avoid? Would some make the photo too bright, too dark, bleed to much, not get enough ink?? You are the crafts store; know your crafts!!
• Dealt with a toddler who desperately needed a nap but didn't want to take one after that. Made the next stop of the day real fun. Hormones and stress kicking in at this point. Didn't have the patience to deal with person(s) who say one thing but get mad when you do that, because obviously I am just supposed to know what they really meant. Yeah, that's always a fun thing to deal with.
• Got a call. Building a house now--at this exact time--is probably a no-go. I say: "That makes sense. We have hit every road block since we breathed the words 'Let's buy and build.' So for now, let's put it on the back burner." His response, "Well let me meet with so-and-such one more time. Let's see if they can do anything." Okay. So you didn't actually want to know what I thought, you just wanted to say the words and do what you were going to do anyways. Got it. Just start the conversation with that next time. So I can zone out and get more work done. Thanks.

Wanna know how I handled all this today? I cried. Lots of tears.

I'm grateful I am physically capable of saying "Oh go piss off!!!" to someone. Doesn't mean I actually go and say it. No. I'm more of the type to say it on repeat in my head and just stew about it. Maybe write a blog post or two about it. But I can't bring myself to say it. Wish I could. But can't.

So instead, I made diner. I made the baby shower invite inserts. I will next do laundry in my room with a British chick flick on while the fiance and kiddo are downstairs. And I will de-stress because today is almost done.

HEY! Maybe that's what I'm thankful for: A done day! haha